wah lao.. this blog has bcome my emo blog alr..
everytime emo, i'll come here blog.
i fear alot, but nowhere to tell anyone abt it
for fear of me scaring them away
with my probs..
so i shall blog here.

today during tkd prac
i totally sucked at sparring.
kicks too low, too slow, too near.
punches = non-existent
hands arms legs and feet are aching EVERYWHERE
even typing this causes my wrist to ache abit.
wad crap.
this made me realise tt i'm not cut out for this.
i wanna improve and this can only be achieved by prac-ing
but everytime i think abt it,
i feel apprehensive
like i dunno wad will happen to me during the trng
damn sad.
:(

dno why
feel damn emo after tkd
din feel like toking to anyone.
lynn went home with mar
so i get to go home alone and listen to emo songs on my mp4.
felt emo up till now
when my parents asked me abt my bruises
i really felt like crying.
why do i suffer so much for nothing?
in fact, i just teared abit just now.
feel better now.
THAT tt dun kill you
makes you stronger and tougher.
HOPE SO.

really wanna have a smugglers outing next week.
but due to circumstances,
it's postponed.
damn sad
now i dun even get to watch spidey.
spidey's grt but no one appreciates him.
WHY?
i'm able to probably bcos i feel for him,
as in i can see his inner turmoil and
the struggle btw wanting to save the world
and seeking his true love.
tt's probably a reason for my emo-ing
tt no one likes him
fan er insult him
"actually spidey not tt nice oso wad"
damn sad.

sometimes i hate myself for being this way:
selfish, arrogant, self-centred and greedy.
but tt's the way i am
i can't change unless someone tells me
how to change for the better
tt's how dense i am too.
stupid.
i expect things to be done my way
things tt i care abt.
but when it's not,
i tend to get irritated and frustrated
and start to emo.
tt's y i hate myself: uncompromising when it mattered.
*closes eyes and sniffs*

it's good to push yourself to the best of your abilities
but never push till you finally can't take it and
fall over the edge, down the cliff.

wad's wrong with me?
is it me or wad?
why do i feel so useless and like there's no meaning in life?
why is it that i always feel this way when i should be happy abt stuff tt i've achieved?
and why i always ask these qns to which there's no answer?

life have been just great
maths, chem, econs and gp are GREAT
phy SUCK like SHIT
wadever.

tkd com on sun
gg
dun wanna let my team down
shall practise hard on sat!
mother's day- HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MUMMY!!

jubilate tml
quite excited though i dun wanna go thru the whole morning
to get to the evening
sian

my classmates are great
it's just tt i dunno how to appreciate them
maybe it's not becos i dunno how
it's cos i dun get enuff slp tt's y i'm emo-ing now..

anw good luck to all who are taking part in the tkd com this sun
i noe you all can do it!
XD
jiayou can liao
the syf band pple too
wish you all all the best!
dun disappoint me.. heh

shall stop emo-ing
it's bad for me